(written on my phone)
Akahige was our knight in shining armour last night. To know him means you know he hates fluids. He even dislikes swimming. He hates bug goo, baby bubbles, sloppy kisses, anything that may be messy he hates. When it comes to killing spiders he usually sprays them and walks away. (Now don't get all emotional for the spiders, I made a deal with them. They don't come into my home and I will try my best not to ruin theirs in my garden.) I like to make sure they are gone from my home asap and usually find a flat surface to squish them. So background set, on to the main event. We had just put koishi down for the night and I started applying lotion to my abused forearms and hands, when I peeked at Koishi slumbering. Noticing something odd just inches from his adorable face I looked closer and saw one of those clear spiders.grrr... I tell akahige as I frantically try to rub the lotion in. Before I could finish, akahige had come in and with a tissue squished the offending spider. Day saved!!!
I have been having a rough go at things for a couple weeks. I get really out of sorts when I am soo tired. It doesnt help that I have been working my butt off trying to see all my clients and a small grouping complains that I am not working enough. So frustrating! To help me get out of my funk I am trying to do one extra task a day. So far this week I have moved a little bit of furniture and hung pictures. I have made dinner twice, changed my bed linens, and cleaned my bathtub. I have caulked around the tub again and loaded the dishwasher. Today I hope to get my office bath cleaned and dinner made, maybe finish hanging pictures. I an also trying to table my disposition towards work. This is a bit harder. Before becoming a massage therapist I was a nanny and worked in a daycare. It is really hard to not be the one who is caring for Koishi. So I am struggling with making my work a choice and not feel like is a "have to". Right now I don't feel like it is my choice. I feel obligated to care for my clients and financally tied to it in order to help pay bills. I know I am not alone, most moms hate working, but I don't want to hate it.
Well that's my early morning mind dump. Watch out spiders akahige is in the house
1 comment:
Hurray for Joseph the spider killer, smasher. He'll do anything for his son.
I'm glad you listed all your accomplishments, doesn't that make you feel good? You're on the path or getting back to normal or whatever. My lists help me feel I have accounted for my time and I've accomplished something be it ever so simple as taking a shower.
I haven't read or written blogs for ages. Glad I read yours.
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